Send a Revival to my heart.

There has been numerous events that have occurred since my last post but as of now, I have decided to skip over all that and focus on now.
There is a revival going on at my church and with all truth, I'm not one that really like going all out in public and kneeling in prayer or lifting my hands. It's not that I'm against it and it's really not that I'm even embarrassed because I know thats often the case. But no. It's not any of that. I simply choose to not go out in public like that because I feel that people will criticize me and call me "so religious" when I know I do wrong all the time. I fear the judgment. But lately, I know God's been working in my life. taking that fear that I have of the people around me and putting that fear towards Him. If I fear the Lord, than whom else shall I fear. And so today at the revival I believe God has been moving me to raise my hands and care not what others think. I've been crying like no body's business. And even though I admittingly cry like a baby for most things, I think that I needed it. And as crazy as it may sound, I don't care if hate is poured on me or if problems come my way because I know God is on my side.
If the world goes against me then I KNOW I must be doing something right.
God is good. He loves me, and I want to love Him more. I don't want this to be a temporary experience. I want this desire to hit me every second of my day of the rest of my life. How glorious would that be!